Why should I bother?

Sometimes, I wondered.. "why should I bother"
Bother about the people around me, the problems that is not related to me,
bother about unnecessary troubles, bother about work which is just work lor.. etc
Why Why Why?
I have no answer at all...

Then what does my mother want from me?
Why is it that she just cannot stop her "nagging or complaints" to me?
As if I have commited a major crime or what?
I already listened to her so much since I was young and
I hated what I am today because I feel like I am not happy at all... zzzz
Why must everything I do also need her permission and involvement?
I want to turn rebelious so many times and moved out of the house...
She knew that what my personality is like and she just
want to provoke me further by asking silly and stupid questions repeatedly.
Do I really have to become a CRAZY and MAD person before I can have peace of mind?
I really cannot stand it anymore... I just so scared inside...
I hope and pray that I will not lose my hot temper and become out of control...
I do not know what is my tolerance level and patience limit to my loved one esp my family.

Somehow they kept doing things which I just feel not interested to know at all...
Perhaps the more I bo chap, the more attention they seek from me...
Damn it... It is not I am bo chap... it is never because I do not care or don't bother to know...
Simply the fact is... I do care and bother.. and
In fact, I just think I cared, concern and bother about them too much
maybe in a different way and methods using the devil power...
perhaps I just want to do things differently from others...


OMG... suan le....forget it...
Let the heaven decide for me.
Complaining and vexing so much is also useless now...
There are much better things to do tomorrow...
Leave me alone and I will be fine...
I am going for my sleep now...
It is the best cure and medicine for me I guess....

Good Night everyone!
Sweet Dreams too
^_^