Internal Struggle

I must have done something very wrong and bad in my previous life...
Why do I keep crashing with her?
What is it she want from me?
I will never understand her...
OMG... Woman.... Faint...
I know you will never understand the internal struggle I have
because I always behaving so tough and "hack care" attitude toward you
It is not that I don't care.. but
I choose the other way to show my love...
which you do not understand or choose not to accept it.
It is either I change the way I behave or you have to accept
the way that I treated you...
Oh my God... Can you enlightened me...
I am so lost....... like a wandering spirit in a big ocean...
What did I do wrong?