Life & Death

Yesterday I just went to a colleague father's wake in the afternoon at lunch time...
Suddenly, many thoughts came to my mind.
Why do humans have to suffer before they die?
Why must our loved one die (before us)?
Why we cannot choose the our own "expiry date"?
Lastly, when will be my time come?
haha.. maybe when i become one of the "shinning star"
Lol.. I am not being negative or depressed before the CNY is coming...

But I can feel, understand and sympathise the pain of a patients who have to
gone through so much pain and agony...
The pain of losing your precious and loved one...
The pain of feeling so emptiness and willingness to fight to live for another day..
The pain of not able to help your loved/special one when they are suffering..

Finally... what have I achieved or hope (and want) to achieve before I leave this world?
I know the day will come when somebody above chop a "stamp and I will have to go meet them"
Maybe what I want to achieve hopefully will be done when my time come...
Haha.. too many silly questions running and flashing through my minds....
Anyway, I do not have any answer or I don't even need any answer...
Because they are no longer important to me... at least for now